Nowadays either too lazy, or im too busy to post..
Finally, my examinations are over. Can have a peace of mind now.
Holidays!! ^^ Thinking of looking for a job. Quite difficult though.
And im not too sure myself what kind of job im looking for either.
Admin jobs? heh.. Never try before, maybe should give it a try?
But i heard from my frens saying his admin job needs a resume, then have to wear formal for the interview. omg.
Formal isn't a problem. The real prob is the resume part!
I don't even know what to write in my resume. haha..
Perhaps should approach my frens to get the idea of how to do up one..
Since all of us might need one. Might as well learn to do one now.
Ytd went to work at Swiss Club, $7/hr. Felt quite nice working there though.
But too bad, they doesn't have functions everyday. Haiz..
I thought I can get to work today too. But last minute cancelled! =(
Hey!! i did this and thought the result was quite well.. lol..

Alright! Lets review my examination process. This time, im particularly stress. I dunno why. Maybe it's bcuz everyone around me seem lyk so hardworkingly studying. I can't help but to feel the sudden urge to ask myself, "wad am i doing?".
The ppl in polytechnic, they are truly the "mugger" type. The times that I can get good grades without really studying is over. Cuz they know their directions, which way to mug in order to get to the top. I know Im not the poorest, but i just cant stand it, finding myself in the middle of the rank, nethier good nor bad. This will get me nowhere.
Due to the immense stress and pressure, i resorted to the usual "de-stress" style, looking up for my bros and frens to go out with them. However, i found that i couldn't find any of them, when i need them most. Why do i not study when i should?
Cuz i know i couldn't take it no more. im at my limit. Loneliness started engulfing me. It's so dark, im so afraid im truly alone. Up until now, it's not over yet. Maybe this is life? Maybe each and everyone of u has went through this already? But frankly, if this is life, i'd rather not live.
During this examination period, i found myself losing directions, directions leading my life to things which i feel one must succeed in. I've lost it, and i've lost it all. Walking down this period of my life, aimlessly alone, feeling only incompetence, things couldn't get any worst than this.
I hope I can adapt to my school environment asap. The change was too great for me to overcome, adopt, and adapt. And im trying to tell myself, im not alone, im not alone.. I hope this shit will be over soon..