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(29 mars 2008-)
+8:00 e paradites]*
# Lonely..-
Feeling so lonely again. Upon knowing all my bros going in army, this feeling of solitude envelops my whole heart. Got this thought of joining army together with them. But im afraid i'll lose interest in studying after completing my national service.
"You better go find another group of frens la, our side no hope liao!"
All the more i feel lonely after hearing one of them saying this..
Now, even when they are still outside, im alrdy feeling so so so alone. After they go in, im really afraid i cant look up to anyone when i needed someone there for me.
All of the sudden, i feel so afraid of scool reopening. Im afraid, i wont have time for those impt ppl in my life. Im afraid, they will leave me cuz we've got lesser time tgt.
Do i really have to learn to let go in this life?? Learn to be independent??
Who can i look forward to?
I hope that's not how we end..;
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(9 mars 2008-)
+5:05 e paradites]*
# Bitter.-
S.I.A.N.!
Really wonder how life can be so boring lyk mine now..
Sad.. Haiz..
I wanna work..
But i don lyk sales line..
=( But Joanne told us tat Topshop hiring ppl..
Shall i go for it??
At Wisma though.. hmm..
The pay's okok la..
But it'll mean my days at home are numbered if i were to be hired..
AHhhhh!!
Hate making decisions lyk these..
I hope that's not how we end..;
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(7 mars 2008-)
+5:57 e pasdites]*
# -
Things in life arent easy yea?
Going through all alone is tough..
So God made us frens, perhaps?
To ensure us tat loneliness wont pester us any longer when we felt it..
But sometimes loneliness still seem to follow us anywher, everywher.
Its the feelings inside,
I should describe it as "emptiness".
I do feel empty from time to time..
I guess everyone does?
Even when we've everything, things we want so much, it still does follow us..
Sometimes, just wish tat someone who truly knows me might appear.
So tat he/she can really understand me..
But i'd become so "predictable" while facing tat person, isnt it?
Its not something good too, rite?
Life is contradicting! =)
Shall update again soon.
I hope that's not how we end..;
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