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Lots and lots of things to blog today..
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Ok.. Today finally get my hair cut.. AHHH!!
haha.. At Hair Journal..
Wakao.. The atmosphere there, gao gao lei..
Spent $20 on hair cut there.. And $15 for membership for three years.. =P

Hmmm.. Not very nice la..
But lyk the atmosphere there! VINTAGE sia.. ^^

After that send caleb to yck mrt station.. Cuz he going work..
So good lor.. He gonna work still accompany me go cut hair.. haha.. Thanks bro..

Went to meet ck at his hse..
Den re-style my hair..
Their hair styling sucks though.. =x
Accompany him go central.. Pay his utilities bills..
Was troubled wif brotherhood(bh) stuff though..
So sat outside the post office alone.. Lyk gong kia lyk tat..
Kept thking and thking.. haha..

Den got to chat wif ck awhile.. And get to update a little on our bh on him...
Hmmm.. When it seems lyk we're faltering, we're not afterall..! =)))
Den he went to work le..
After tat met wif hao, den finally bought my contact lens!! $35!!! $5 more than the usual one i bought.. But boian la.. Other shop all close le!!
Wa... Its lyk, I use the old contact lens for 2 months plus lor.. No wonder my degree got worse.. =x
Den mei came.. And we went to kbox..!!
Haha.. 3 hours nia... $26.20 each person! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXD
But quite fun though.. haha..
Sang to the bottom of our hearts..!
And sang one song for her.. But she not there to listen.. haha..

Den sinyee they all called me.. Say wan come kpool find me.. haha..
Thanks!! =)) But we're in kbox.. So din get to meet up..
Haha.. Sent mei home tgt wif hao after tat..
By tat time, we alrdy gonna "tou" liao.. Too shag..!
But guess wad? I din go home.. haha..
Went to meet up wif caleb and chat the whole night..
zzzzzzZZZZZZZ!
But the conversation strengthen my belief..!
We call one another Bros, not for name, not to just show ppl that we're close, but its a "sacred" title for our special bonds.. Bros are for LIFE!
Not forever though.. why??
Forever meant even after death!
Got the difference? haha..

At first, i tot bros are to ACCEPT each others' negative points..

Now, it's renewed! We dont have to accept, we ACKNOWLEDGE!

We acknowledge one another for who we are..

U are my Bro, always my bro..! =))

Im sorry i couldnt get it earlier.. Made u disappointed.. Im sorry bro..

I'll treasure u too!! ^^

But sad to say, one of us has drifted apart..

Rmb??

The times when our suaning was simply un-stoppable?

The times when we shouted, "beat our brother ar?!" and we chased and cornered zhiwei in a dead end and hit him lyk hell??

The times when we were on our way to boon's hse to ton, talking bout the "THUMB" thingy?? =x

The times when we said we were MF f5?

The times when we study tgt...?

No matter wad they say.. Im still clinging on to tat tiny hope, tat one day, u'll b back..
U're the one i gave concession the most..
U're the one i once trusted most..
And u'll be my bro, till our live ends..
It may sound silly..
At least tat's something im sure of it on my part..
Bro.. Love is not all..
U forgot!
U still have us brothers..
Rmb, its not just for show!
Bros help out each other in times of trouble..
Bros share happy times tgt..
And bros, have NOTHING we cant solve with one another!..
If u make the effort..
Other things i settle..
But still.. Count on u..
Once bro, forever brothers...
Rmb this well..

I hope that's not how we end..;
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2008, March 22nd, 1330,
I am xinfu pig! x) She told me i am.. I feel i am too..! Just wanna hold on to tis feeling a little longer, forever.. I miss her..

2008, March 17th, 0120,
AHHHHH!! Jealousy is enveloping me again!! Hate it Hate it Hate it!! Haha.. Its quite serious though.. But i guess i shouldnt let her noe.. Im trying my best to contain wad is it im feeling each time.. Luckily tis time, i manage to stop asking her stupid questions whic might lead us to quarrel.. Hmm.. In the midst of feeling low, I listen to tis song!
Ji De Ai.. Somehow, i feel better. Nice song!! =] I'll love her, always..

2008, March 13th, 2305,
Gal's troubled again! Why cant i help her.. I really feel so down when i noe she's being troubled. And i thk she just quarrelled wif someone of her family.. I finally knew, those troubles she have, and im starting to see more clearly, why's she so troubled in the past.. I really wish she'd tell me her problems.. Share wif me.. At least, complain to me.. Im so afraid tat thers tis another guy she'd call whenever shes troubled.. But i don dare to tell her.. Cuz i kept telling myself, "tis isnt the rite time." Im really afraid, I might add burden to her.. Juz lyk my heart whic shes holding.. Its heavy..

2008, March 8th, 1015,
Haha.. Found tat most of the time only updated sad stuff.. Guess i should update some happy times wif ya here too, yea? Went out wif gal on Febuary 29th!

She initiated for us to go out tgt on tat day.. I bet tat was a Good Friday. xD
Was really delighted when i saw tat msg.. For a second, really tot i was dreaming.. Things had a change, ever since. We went out on 29th Feb, its our first date! Watched movie, The Water-Horse. But wad i enjoyed wasnt really the movie, it was being able to be wif her. Though tat show did entertain me a little.. =]

From tat day onwards, we've not really had a fight. Just hope nothing will change her mind from being tgt wif me. Cuz i really couldnt let her go anymore.. Now, im really feeling the meaning of "hate that i love u"..

I love you..

2008, Febuary 29th, 0110,
Ytd saw u, u face look restless.. U'd better really take good care of urself ok? Im really worried. Got to worry bout ur decision. And got to worry bout ur well-being.. Ur face look really pale. So pls pls pls, have enough rest, drink enough water, and watch ur diet, dont eat heaty stuff k? Don fall sick le..

Planned on asking u out on the 29th of feb. Cuz tis date, its memorable. I truly found ur presence by tat sms.. Rmb? Saying tat on the 29th of feb, u're getting engage and stuff. Tot it'll be most wonderful if u'd agree to go out wif me on 29th feb, today.. But now, i don even noe if we can continue until the next 29th feb.. My hands, they doesnt wan to let go.. of u..

2008, Febuary 28th, 1333,
I've so much I planned on saying. But when i face u. Those words i utter doesnt seem to make any sense. U're nice. All u did was smile, as u din noe how u should react. No matter wad i've done for u, no matter how sincere i am, i still cannot bury tat pain in u.. Im incompetent. Sorry.

2008, Febuary 23rd, 0707,
We fought, i bleed, but the pain wasnt as excruciating as the one inside..
I tot I could vent it all out.
But still, its there.
The pain.
Its there.

I didnt wan to mention abt her leaving me. But after she not replying, I tot for sure tat is wad was on her mind.
Her reply, tells me, she cares. Why must I act strong in front of her..? I just doesnt noe which to comply. My promise? Or my love for her?

Aft tat last tym, I really love her, I am sure, she is tat gal I am waiting for. I knew it deep within, tat there will still be a very high possibility tat we'll get disappointed over a particular subject. And I know, it was too painful for her to go through all these. She might just choose to gif up and move on wifout me. She told me, parting is parts and parcel of life. And it might just turn out to be a test for the both of us. I got upset merely over tat msg.
Why am i so fragile?
I must be strong.
Den, she told me to do everything, not for her, but for myself.
I got upset again.
I am fragile.
But i must stay strong.

I really cant bear to leave her.. But i doesnt wan her sympathize and come back to me. So i told myself, i must stay strong. Even if she's to leave me, i will stay strong.

But i cant. She meant too much to me. Despite the wounds and injuries, all are nth compared to wad's dwelling inside of me. Those feelings, too strong, they are bringing me down.

She's really getting hurt by me. Far too much. She deserves a better guy. Perhaps someone who will really treat her way better dan i do.

Her staying silence, meant shes completely hurt. I guess its too late.
But tis shall be the last time..
Im sorry.
I love you, Pamela...

2008, Febuary 18th, 0140,
If love is tis simple, we might not have been tgt. Cuz if love is tis simple, u might hav been tgt wif another guy, happily passing everyday. If love is tis simple, we might not hav found each other's existence, turning us into "passer-bys" in each of our lives. Love isnt simple, when u complicate it. But love CAN BE simple. It is something sacred, something which only concern two parties. Love brought us tgt. And now, love is the one separating us. No. Love isnt the culprit, the complication is. I've said tis hundreds of times, I don care abt how ppl look at us, how they laugh at us, how they scold me an idiot, how they look down on OUR relationship, cuz i knew, none of them hav felt tis way. Just believe me gal. By the time, we get through, the world will never be the same. Love will be simple when u thk it is.. loves..

2008, Febuary 11th, 0415,
I was soooOOO afraid i might not be able to post about e both of us ever again..! But im glad im still here posting, about us. =) These few days, lots have happened between u n me. Can i say tat we've been through parting wif one another? Hehe.. So much have happened, and we're still tgt. One thing's for sure, i noe im loving u deeper n deeper. Ur feelings for me has faded, so has ur trust in me. I was so despired when i heard tat from u. I tot ther was tis "guy" who has took u away from me. Forever. Glad u're still giving me tis chance to be wif u.. I love u..! =x Anw, i've finished my probabtion, havnt i? =) u're my gal now, n u'll be my gal for my future.. Tat's how i wan it to be.. Loveya.

2008, Febuary 6th, 0239,
I love you.

2008, Febuary 1st, 2156,
Few days back, we had some sorta fight over why couldnt i reveal our relationship to my brothers. It was utmost discouraging when i heard,"can i say no?". I tot aft so long, somehow, u might wan to reveal it slowly. But it seems i were wrong about it. From how u speak, i sense, u din even hav the plans for revealing.
Then, i tot again. I love u, dont i?
Wad really matters in tis relationship?
Wads the point of revealing if it'll put it at stake?
I guess all tat it matters is for us to enjoy being tgt. I couldnt believe i was ur first guy, so now, im starting to understand y sometimes u react differently.. Y u wouldnt wan ppl to know abt us. I hope, soon, u'll see the importance of letting ppl noe rather dan their gossips abt us. U're new to tis tingy called "Love". I'll guide u through from start til end of the journey,
NEVER ever leaving u alone. Love..

2008, January 18th, 0052,
She felt so down today. Being her guy, i couldnt share her burden wif her. Sometimes, just felt tat Im so useless! But I guess it was too painful for her to recount for me about wad happened. At least she confided in someone else. I tot so to comfort myself. Or mayb im still not her guy enough for her to share her burden wif me?.. Its depressing just to think about it tat way. But I'll nv gif up! Until one day, no matter its joy or sorrow, she will share it wif me. For i will be tat one and only guy in her heart. Like how shes in mine, now.. Just felt so heart-broken to see her in such state, to hear her saying she cried, and i wasnt ther for her.. I dont wanna see her suffer! I wish for tat day for me to take care of her will come soon.. Cuz i'll nv ever even try to upset her, even if it means getting all depressed by myself...

2008, January 11th,
I finally got a job! Being a Macdonald's delivery assistant, earning $5/hr.. Easy job though, but i've got to sacrifice my time being tgt wif her. It seemed so long since the last time i was chatting wif her on phone. And finally, we've got the chance to do so! Was happily chatting.. Until i called her "老婆".. My mood went all the way down. I know very well tat both of us cant promise one another eternity.. But at least, not to keep mentioning something whic link tat one day we might part will be better..? I called her tat.. And her reaction was, "siao ar, tat wan u next tym call another person de!" Imagining tat u called ur loved ones tat from the bottom of ur heart. How does it feel to get tis reply...? I know wad shes implying. We might not be partners for life in future, rite? I know, i know tat.. But why must she mention it..? I just hate it.. Hate to hear tat.. After tat, i din know wad i should reply her, so i kept quiet.. I guess, i should find a way to face it. Juz hope, we will last longer dan we expected it to be..

2007, December 25th,
We started off tgt on this date! She is the best christmas present i ever got. My heart was throbbing real fast when i was about to ask tat simple little question. I guess it was hard to believe for someone of my "skin" to be so nervous for tis.. Cuz she meant everything.. Though it was underground, but i guess, tats enough for me.. Thanks for giving me tis chance, to be wif u.. Now, i promised myself tat not in a million chance will i let u get disappointed in tis relationship. Cuz i hope, we will last forever.. You are my everything... Misses.. ________________________________________________

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3rd June, 2008

I miss her.. alot alot.. Dont know if she knows about it, or felt lyk tis for me before.. I see in her replies, she's giving up.. Everytime when i think here, theres tis feeling tat i couldnt find my heart anymore.. My heart, my feelings, all gone, left with a living-dead body of me.. Tis sinking feeling, since last week, i tot it'll forsake me forever.. But it came back again.. Just cuz at the time when i miss her most, i did something out of her definition of "secret".. Did she, besides angry n disappointed, saw how much i missed her..? My heart's bleeding, my eyes tearing.. Shes treating me just lyk any other frens now.. I dont wanna let go of her.. I really dont..! Saw her blog entries, even wifout me by her side, shes still living so happily.. Shes still living so happily.. Looking for her handsome by the window.. Wad am i doing down here? I dont wan to think.. I just wan to keep tis love for her. Never forgetting, never regretting.. My blog's dead, guess nobody reads it anymore.. hope no one will see such a useless side of me.. -I am a coward

10th June, 2008,

Sometimes, looking at her blog, i felt envious, so jealous of her.. Shes having a good life out there.. WeiKang, wad are u doing dwindling here?? She have lots of frens, yes.. Shes cute, yes.. She beautiful, yes.. In a sense, shes just the gal to hav as a galfren.. I noe, out there there are lots of suitors for her.. I noe, even if i let her go so generously, she'd nv come back.. I noe, mayb the next guy she met, they will have an open relationship, so close, tat everyone will be envious.. I noe, life's nv fair.. She asked me to be positive, im trying really hard.. But somehow, i could tell, she told me tat cuz she wanted me to pass my birthday happily.. It wasnt so happy afterall.. I drank, i vomited.. I felt high, but those unhappiness still haunts me.. Seeing her living so happily tis few days.. Seeing her not going through my birthday wif me.. I dont know wad i wan anymore.. Wants her to know, my heart's wif her.. It really is.. I don wanna view her blog again.. It hurts to see, shes living happily wifout me.. But i love her.. isnt happiness wad i wanted her to have?? I just wan to be happy tgt wif her.. i regret it.. it'll be the 1 and only regret in my life.. i swear.
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